What is life ? Do we need to define and understand everything which happens around both in the actual and abstract sense? 

In the past few days, I have learnt that all of us are in search of some thing , some thing we lost or some thing we think we should have gained sometime ago. We are all mere beings of habits, needs and demands. Yet, it gets so complicated as the life moves on. Be it at home or work or at play. There are so many things which make it look complicated. What is complicated? Is it the nature of our being or is it the various 'rules' or 'etiquette' we have set up for ourselves. 

Life for us, by origin has been similar to as that of animals. eat, live, breed and die. The civilization of our life has brought various rules which are very much against the very nature which causes us discomfort 

Well Well Well..As much as we think that we know ourselves and the people around, we ought to admit that there are much more beyond what our eyes can see and mind can imagine just not about ourselves but from the others around too. Today is one such day, which made me realise the truth and the subtility of the truth. The warm sunlight of the awakening summers touched me as I rode one of my relatives to another. I met a couple of lovely people today who are beautiful the way they are. Despite the limitations they have, they retain their identity of true selves. Its truly inspiring to see people of that kind around and brings in new energy and helps one to explore themselves better.

Game

Do we really Know what we want in our life?

It is so easy to say that we want to achieve some thing, we want to be some one, we want to go some where?

I some times, wonder what people would say, if I ask them " Do you really know what you want?"

The most expected response to that question is .." I want to be an XYZ in so and so time"

Have we been taken so much by our occupations that we barely know what we would be without those? Over a period of time, jobs get into out blood, soul and brain. I remember reading it some where "Earlier, organisations used to pay the employees for the work they did with their hands. Now they do for using heart,brains and hands" Perfect quote to mention that capitalists have also invested in the human emotions of a social animal. That't the beauty...While an optimist within me says that all these do provide a better place to work. Conditions which increase the productivity of an employee. Factors which give us comfort zones and make us addicted to come back to the same place every day, a realist in me tells me " who is this fetching?" the one who invested in the entire organization? or is it the brand ?

Sometimes, I can't help but wonder on how we are habituated to live lives of habits. For some, working on schedule, for some smoking and drinking on schedule, for some praying on schedule. People may differ based on the experiences they have of these, however, what happens at the end is still unknown. May be the journey becomes easier or tougher, but what's the ultimate destination.

Do the basic biological theories of survival of fittest and struggle for existence still hold good? If yes, then where has been the development in the human race?

Its a Game

The Last Time I cried

As depressing as it may sound, this is reality. Which each of us go through at one stage of life, we admit or not, we know it or not.

This happened during handling an assignment at Filipines. The days, when I was away from home, when I met people whom I never knew, who I never thought existed. After a short time spent with them, I learnt how human's are related by their very nature. Life is the same, where ever we are, however we are. We are very common with the pains, hunger, loneliness, happiness, its just that we lead our lives in different styles in different time zones. When I met these friends from filipines, my belief that Love is Universal was only affirmed.It was so affirmed that it was ought to be true. The quick smoke breaks, the little expressions of each other's feelings, the coffee cups, the deep conversations and many more made me realize the unique connection all of us have. The time flew. People who made a positive impression, a few who left a blank space. Perhaps, life is an Oscillation between all these stages.

Some times, I think, Is being in Love and expressing it bound to gender,age,time and Space? When we know that by expressing it, both the parties feel better, why not do it? Anyways, after a series of incidents I learnt, that being with people we tend to feel insecure because of a preset notion, which may or may not be true.

Life is very incomplete without the knowledge of yourself and why you are the way you are. When the day of return was ahead, I cried my heart out for days. This time of my life, made me realize that we are all one. I cried for the waiter who served me food, for the receptionist who wished me everyday, for my Yosi friend who held his thoughts at a gulp. My friend who gifted me one new gift everyday. My friend who brought me prawns every tuesday, some one who drank beer 'san miguel' sharing the cosmic connection.

all of them who helped me to be what I am today.

Sometime in the Past

Sometime in the past, I thought that love is a universal binder. It helps us understand each other better. It helps us maintain harmony amongst ourselves making life easy. Sometime in the past, I respected the others' thoughts, cried when they were sad, helped them recover stress. Sometime in the past, I thought love is beyond sexes, beyond social bindings, beyond origins. I believed that Hugging some one can bring them closer to us. Looking into their eyes can make the relationship stronger until one day...


When..crying for their griefs was considered emotional instability, hugging them was considered too lame, loving them was a stain on sexual orientation.

So, what's wrong in this. Was it wrong to love some one so unconditionally? Was it wrong to cry for some one? Should I have associated with a meaning for what I do?

Biggest of All..Can I ever become that again???

Technology

Quite astonishing to see the way life changes so fast and so dramatic. " School" used to remind us of a room with wooden tables and desks, a middle aged teacher with a cane, a black board with some works of chalk. The mental muscle memory still has the fragrance of the chalk and the chalk dust which fell on our uniform when  clearing the board. The work we used to do for teacher's day and other national holidays. Dressing up then was white and white.Lazy bums (like me) polishing their shoes early in the morning, coloring their shoes with the chalk dust..Those are the memories which perhaps the kids of this age wouldn't know of. The modern ages have brought so much of technology into the classroom..there is hardly any use of the blackboard and the CANE. Is this what development is? If that's true ..what has the technological advancement  brought into man's life? Insomnia, overweight, new cancers, restless souls, lifeless bodies, ever lasting drinking habits?

Is life what we make out of it or is the way it is?

Analytically speaking, if life is what we make it, what do we know of it to make of it? Do we know what's the next minute all about? End of the day, struggle for existence and survival of the fittest have just taken a new form in the modern ages leaving the minds blank and a tendency to run behind a mirage..To run until we realize that it's not the end. We pass it on like the Olympic torch from one person to another, one generation to another..adding polythene to the mother earth, carbon monoxide to the father air and we feeding on them.

Serene, sound and silent sleep is what we need. How do we get that when we are so occupied, when our lungs are filled with so much of LPG converts, when our foreheads are frowned even if the eyes are closed..

This is the modernization of the earth which gives no room to modernization of thoughts. When there is no thought development, I wonder how will there be a change in the way Human race can develop. Isn't thought supposed to be the seed of deed? If we can't think without a materialistic attachment, how is that a thought development?

I wonder...

Truth

Its quite astonishing that we don't notice the truth of life while we chase for the eternal false. Let us first understand what truth is. The definition of truth is inevitably different for each of us. What I consider truth may not be truth for you. However, we as humans have a pattern of thought, the more people say some thing as truth, truth it is. That's how our cultures, civilizations have evolved perhaps. 

Only because some one said that developing a car, inventing an aero plane is  development, which of course was a response to the necessity, we followed them and that's how development is defined both economically and technologically. But is that true development? If it is so, why are we unable to keep ourselves happy and content. 

Nevertheless, the understanding of how strong an opinion can be is really important to understand the operation of a culture