Manimal!

Offlate, I have learnt that most of the things in life seem harder to accept because we live in world which is with in and is an illusion . It may be an ambition or a threat. We are driven by those thoughts. If all what we were chasing were true we would never be unhappy, for all the reality accepted gives peace and happiness. Nevertheless, the following thought stuck my mind today ..


Human beings are social animals. We are still animals. Animals follow instinct. They are born, they eat, they live, reproduce and die. If we are animals too..we too follow the same? The various threads of culture and civilisations which has been woven into our very soul and self has changed the thought process. Although this may be an expression of the instinct based colonization, what would drive human beings to move away from nature for ages? The very first step we took was the establishment of the perishing relationships in the name of living as a herd. These have only led to the development of the advancements such as medicine, engineering and others. The man  never stops to think what exactly would keep him happy than to chase life for happiness. Millions of people have come to this earth, suffered the agony of life and moved on. Those unwritten stories have left a message equally worth of those who have written auto biographies. The war within is still the same whether expressed or unexpressed. The power of rationalization is fading away as the generations pass by leaving behind weary prints of our origin.  Get ready as  we may evolve into some other creatures. Just the way we came from monkeys.

Growing Up

Once upon a time..when I was new to the world , I used to enjoy even if I fell down, I used to like playing in the hot sun, I loved sharing the left over with my friends...As the days passed by my parents taught me that I should be care ful enough not to fall, my grand mother taught me that heat damages our health, my girl friend told me I need to save for my rainy. Now, I am scared of falling, conscious of my health and greedy of money. The world calls this growing . Only I know how much I suffocate within. I want to help others but cant because I lost the habit. I want to love but am afraid that I might be rejected. I want to share but fear poverty. Is this called growing? 

If so, why am I not able to enjoy it? Why am I not as blissful as a flower and as bright as a sun?
If so, why is the smile not as brilliant as the spark of a diamond. Why is all that appears not true?

Did I change over the years? Did i lose what I gained because of the fears?

A soul

Reality Check

A few things in our life. We get stranded so much by our ambitions and what we want to do in our life that we lose the inner selves. This happens with life after life...and we get caught in the horse hair threads and end up in the search of ourselves. We focus on every inch of step we take to reach the perfection in what we want to which leaves a void space in our soul...then we realize  that we got our heels hooked to our head and we want to run. The moment when we gaze into the reality and face it with a smile tells us how much we know ourselves. The challenge is to keep all our hallucinations apart, our egos behind and watch what our mind says...thats what a soldier would do .

Modern!?

" The Only way out is within " is a lovely book by Rohini Sharma. She reiterates the point , earlier stated by a few gurus of Yoga that do not be curt to your emotions. Just let the thoughts flow. Be freind your thoughts and the mind will be your friend. How beautiful!? This is a beautiful manifestation of the human soul. This comes with a disclaimer. The gold cannot be moulded into an ornament until it passes through fires. Perhaps, that's why humans have discovered the various hymns which help us relieve the thoughts. If you notice, we cannot talk and think at the same time. So chanting helps us to be relieved of the stress while being able to control your thoughts. How Modern?

And given a chance human mind tends to go those incidents which makes them regret. Just like the water which always flows to the low. The use of such techniques of chants and praises of the almighty are merely tools to be able to empower ourselves.They are not the destination by themselves. The way out here when we are overwhelmed with negative thoughts : We can experience that, what we are going through is not pleasant. So, we need to realise that, we are just falling prey to various emotions which bind us to the never ending cycles of emotions. We need to look at the situation from the helicopter view then every thing looks small and soon we will realise its not worth happiness.

All said and done. Being there is not easy.

Why is it Hard to Forgive!?

Its's quite easy to read and hear people say " forgive but never forget"  It's very tough though. What is forgiving!? An ability to forget what happened through the means of understanding what the guilty has been through!? If we keep thinking about some one else, who will think  of us and what we have been through? That leaves us with two options: Don't care for what the others did or forgive them out of love My Thoughts on them:

Not Caring for the others : Is it possible to ignore people when you see them every day and when the memories are linked to them in some or the other manner? To be able to do that, you will need to be made of rock where you live only for some purpose such as money, job and live a hypocritical life.Thats mediocre?

Being able to forgive some one out of love: What's love? Its a universal feeling of being able to understand and respect some one for what they are( Its not love if u r able to give time to know the other person< its not love) . So when you are not able to love some one from the heart, you are only compromising with your own values and saying that you were forgiving him/her. That's hypocricy/ just a stunt to take care of practical things. What ever the reason may be, it's just not true. So why live false? Live with pride and don't lie. I am not encouraging grudges against each other

Yes, experience taught me. Respect once lost is lost.

Silsile

On the way back from work, there is this place where most of the vendors selling chai set up their stalls. People of all types come there to sip the chai and relieve their every day stress. The ones setting up the stalls include men who make money for their family, old couple who try to live their last days with food three times a day, kids who study in the morning. Yet, the most wonderful thing I have noticed is that they do not worry about what the other person is earning. They think and live for that day, earn for their lives. No greed, no jealousy, no insecurity. So unlike corporate ( no offence intended ) The point I am trying to make is, we are so bound to the luxuries and pleasure although we live a life of comfort that we find every thing less. On the other hand, we find people who manage things better than us, who are better at sales than us..it's their life. eg Dabbawalas. The irony is that I am not sure if I can implement the moral  I learnt. We only crave for more more and more. whilst the real happiness is in giving in the best for that minute.

The Best Actor

Although all of us do not agree, the following is worth a thought. On a typical day, we act innumerous times. Whether it is to say " please" to some one, whether it is to hangout with some one. We just pretend to be happy. When some one says "Are you hurt ?" after belittling us ' No! It is okay!", After some one ignores us and say " Sorry if I hurt you !" It's alright" Are you making the best decision?" "Ofcourse I am!" Deep down within the heart, we know that what we say is not what we mean all the times. That's just because, we are not free yet. We just think we like the life we lead but we know if we do or we do not. There is a conformation somewhere or the other. An anchor holds our life to unknown things which we fear to face, Fear of being discriminated, fear of not earning enough, fear of dying alone, fear of being powerless. But as the time passes by we realise that fears are small.What we do not notice are the new inhibitions we developed. Where is the end to it.!?

Perhaps, in smiling heart-fully, in doing small things which we like, or in not speaking lies, or in realizing that nothing is the end of the world. Its too complicated to be simplified. Life is just abstract already.  

What's the solution? 

Perceptions

The existence of perceptions is quite Intriguing in Human life. 




What is a perception? An Opinion about some thing or some one. We frame a perception based on what we know about the object.However, how do we know that what we know is correct? Not possible . On the other hand, if we do not frame a perception about the object we will not be able to extend our relationship with the object. * (This is required in the practical world to keep up the humanly relationships and obligations until our last breath). 

How is life different for the one with a perception from the one who doesn't? What ever is the case, living with a perception and not being impacted by that is almost a feat and needs practice.

Suicide is a SIN

Yeah Yeah! Life looks so tiring.But the beauty is when you look at back what you learnt through the coarse, you just are happy. We got so busy that we cant enjoy these moments to ourselves. We just imagine things to eternity.We tend to lick at our wounds through self sympathy which is never a cure.It only makes things worse.It may be fatal to our natural self. The real personality of one selves is only seen when we face the realities of life and when we deal with them looking into their eyes.Its just that we don't know or admit that we can still learn and there is nothing wrong in not knowing some thing. Every time we come across a situation we are not familiar with, we just get into our security blankets just like an ostrich digs into the ground. To enjoy the life we need to be awake every minute of it and enjoy it.Nothing can go worse.WE ONLY IMAGINE as that moment is the end of the world. We will next day, need to see the sunrise.So why not see it with happiness? Instead of killing our own self by stashing our own happiness.


After all, Suicide is a SIN

How Old am I?

Yeah Yeah! Its easy to say that nothing in life remains for ever..time is the..blah blah. Unless the ramifying incidents happen with you everyday in life. All of have been through those so called amateurish adolescence where we feel like having taken over the world and have ruled in thrice in a day. We find it foolish now. Same would happen to today..When it gets worn out one day..into the life. How strange that we get worried about it though we know that whats today doesn't exist tomorrow . The Reality of life is we get old and bored when we don't learn. So are we getting old? Are we getting younger?

Fear.No Fear.

Until I woke up from my thought coma ( which happened recently) I used to think that we all live in an unconditioned environment. A series of Incidents whipped me to teach that we live in a so called society which is conditioned with a few thought patterns. With a few protocols. A few codes. That's called culture. The mystery is where does this culture originate from? Me, You and all of us. Yet, only because some one rebels or deciphers the code in their own fashion, they do not become alien. 

Why are we so scared of change?

We lived in a set fashion of life for so and so number of years and we think that's how life is.Just like a frog in the well
The moment we sniff a change in it,we develop a social nutshell. Just like the snail
When things do not work out the way we want we adapt. Just like the chameleon.

Finally, some how, some where we are still animals. Lost in the woods of civilization. In the huge roars of the music, In the indulgence of spirits and tasty creams.


Isn't human life suppose to be different and pleasant ?

Answers Innumerable.Destination One.

Reality

The prologue for this one is a fictitious conversation between Ahalya and Sita. Sita asks Ahalya " Being one with such luminescence and knowledge why did you not explain the reality to your husband before he stoned you ?"
Ahalya, with a gracious smile responds " Every one in this world has their own version of reality. So the truth differs from person to person" How true!?

The point is we think so much of what it was and what its gonna be like that we forget what it is now. Though we do not know the reality, we believe in certain values and a few principles, because deep down the flesh and blood, there is a voice which tells us the truth. However, in the clamor of various things we see every day, this voice, our inner conscience is being walked over. To such an extent that one fine day, when we realize what we do not know about our self, we are already far away. Nevertheless, it's never too late. What we need to remind ourselves of while we are in the process of learning , which is until we breathe last, is that there is lot more that we do not know. Conformation to an opinion gives us the the ability to be content with what we do. But that may not be the reality.It only squashes our ability to think beyond what we can see.

We do not realize that we wanting things to be the way we want is only a desire. While what we really think of them deep in our conscience is the wish, which will come true. Only by saying that we know people and ourselves need not mean that we know them. We need to ask our selves, Do we?

There is never an end to the journey within....and every step is a destination by itself. :)

Realisation

Although I know that what I think would be may not be at all, and we need to be positive to make things work out the way you want, some thing inside tells me that we cant manipulate all what we want. The worst thing here is you get stressed out for nothing.Because of some thing, some one which/who may or may not be relevant to you? So the resolution is to gain the lost self to be able to smile at all times, Care a damn about what world says , until I believe the same. STOP self sympathizing and be realistic. That's the way to happiness. That's the path to enjoy the most. That's the way to lead life. You will have people who demotivate . People who belittle. But those are all animal instincts which all of us are bound with. This makes it evident that I need to be beyond the reach of such filth and swamps of emotions to be able to sustain the true self. I can do it. So can you. I need to start accepting my own mistakes. Worry less that some one has pointed out a finger. After all, self respect is an illusion too. Thoughts just go on...

Running Away from the Past!!!

This could be depressing to read but true.

 Most of the people who have crossed their earning years, have this tendency to get irritated though irrelevant Also, they have a mind which consciously or unconsciously reminds them of all unwanted things of their youth. Making them feel miserable. They Get Literally so helpless that they can't even sleep at peace.