Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Do we change?


Its quite surprising that we do not notice the few small things which happen every day. My mom wakes up from her sleep to make my meal and doesn’t sleep until I atleast  start eating. The most unusual thing is usually we don’t even appreciate her the effort she has made to feed us, to see the smile on our face. But if the same happened at our work, we get furious about it, make a fuss, put our papers down and feel if the sky is falling on us.

Given the fact that we share that kind of relationship without beloved ones, we also need to give a thought that they are individuals as we are. But we fail to do it. Why? Is it because we have changed so much that we are shy to give a good night kiss to our parents/siblings only because we are so called grown ups! Is it because we have got ourselves laid with some one which makes us superior? (Are we actually superior?) Is this called growing up? The answer lies in our heart but we prefer to live in denial which makes us all the more foolish. In the years of life we live, if we are able to add few smiles, few gestures of love, few moments of time,though we cant promise hassle free lfe but we will have minimum hassles and more enjoyable life.

This calls for the attention that it’s all small things and small gestures which make the difference. It’s just not the affection but also that small little observations on one self, will help us understand more of ourselves. For instance, there was this one particular day where the fuel on my bike was on reserve and I was consciously aware that I might run out of fuel at any time. But just taking it for granted made me push my bike for a while. Lucky I, the bike stopped somewhere close to my house and the weather was pleasant. What if the conditions were different? I am not arguing that we should think about the unhappened. The point is that, these small things tell us a lot about ourselves. To save the so called self respect, it’s required that we attend to these and accept our faults.
Give it a thought.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

What's Good??


How strange! We keep complaining that life has not been good to us! Some one has not been good to us!
Some one said that we are not good! Do we know whats good!? In reality, we do not know whats good because there is nothing which is GOOD. It's just the way we feel about some thing which makes us come to the conclusion that it's good. When we come to conclusion, we forget to check out other options. Which means we are blinding ourselves with our ignorance. So, what every is in the life is just positive unless it makes you feel suffocated. So the right thing to say would be " This makes me suffocate" than "this is BAD"Guess then that most of the difficult things will become easy for us to live, accept and  enjoy. Yes, you will need to use your instinct to judge if you can really face the truth ...with a smile and do you have the courage to accept the truth from within!

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

What the fish!!???

Another major learning!! I have been having a few conversations with my friends..which opened the doors to more wisdom.

Observations: We tend to talk about people on their back..( Obviously not good things) , we tend to get defensive when we know that some one is back biting us..

Inferences: We back bite when we get in secured on what we have, when we don't enjoy the success of others the way we do our own success, we don't know what to do, when we find some one vulnerable. We only say we respect but donno how to spell it

We get defensive because we are afraid every one knows our secrets. Some where in the bottom of the heart we know we can do better but we are lazy and always make excuses. We like to be respected though we dont respect others. We are not happy with what we have We want more


Prescription : All the ones who get defensive.wake up know your self better
The ones who talk behind the back.You need help ask for it!Nothng wrong in saying that you need help!

PS : If you are too pricy to accept..May your soul rest in peace

Monday, November 22, 2010

Who Am I?

I wake up with dreams and nightmares
I dress up to hear from some one
I am worried what would my neighbours say
I am unhappy to hear different about  myself
I think on what people think abt me and why they think so
I think why I am so and why notso
I tell myself dat I am bad and not
I correct myself for the language I speak
I compare myself toy colleagues, friends and others
I see  how the others suffer
I can't help but I tell myself that I have a reason
I prefer to be spoken well about
I get scared that people don't like me
I like to be an enigma and still want the people to be interested in me
I know and I don't know what I want
I fear disrespect from other
I die to be different
I love being pampered but cant pamper others
I search for my soul mate
I loathe myself and lookup to others
I am weak and strong
I am fat and thin
I feel eyes around me
I hear lips whispering
How strange there's so much with in me and still the world goes on
Who am I?
After all a human being?

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Worry

Off late based on my interactions, I have noticed that.there are so many things which keep happening in our daily life . Some within our control some out of our control. Irrespective of that, we are being controlled by them. We want to wake up in comfort, we want to get dressed well, we want to look good, we want to be surrounded by people, etc etc. Its so strange even if one of the elements miss we go into a kind of depression. We tend to shout at the ones who gave us the pain. We tend to remain to our selves, We avoid those we don't like. What we don't notice is that we are all in the illusion of control. Some one wouldn't change because you abused him. Some one wouldn't talk good about you because you don't like to be back bitten. Some one wouldn't respect you because you want it. These all have to happen involuntarily and naturally, just the way you breathe. Yet, if that would have been so easy life would have been so different. At least, we can avoid unnecessary thoughts by realizing the fact that true happiness doesn't lie in the untrue expectations from others when we ourselves are not. But then the question is Do we know what we are? The other questions which come along are: Can we accept our mistakes than blame others? Can we apologize when necessary? Do we respect others? Many more questions which always remain unanswered because we are scared of ourselves.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Reality

The journey of going within one selves never ends.
A few thoughts: There is one person who I know keeps to herself. Her loneliness, her happiness, her sad ness, her celebrations, her hunger, her thirst, her wants, her needs every thing. I am hardly aware if there is some thing else is her life than I know. Given the fact that I don't know much it is very unusual that we find people who are to themselves. Completely. Some one who cant share..who don't want to share..What ever the reason is.they are lonely.

Life is so strange and unfair to us. One need not be like the one I just expressed about.If we carefully notice our life, though we have so many things which keep us occupied in our life such as family, friends, job, joy, pleasure, the inevitable truth of life is that we are to ourselves. We are born alone and we die alone. How strange?

I watched this movie " The Fever" The speaker says " We know that we can give money we earn to some one else who needs it. Yet, we don't. Not that we cant live if we share. We don't want to. Why?





This is the point of introspection. We need to understand the real reason behind what we do . Some times perhaps we have reasons beyond what we can imagine. But they could be real. For the reality is that we don't want to accept and agree. Because we are all very comfortable with the way we lead life. On our own comfortable beds, our dates, our own salary based accounts, we get food to eat, clothes to wear. Is that the reality? We, I guess, fail to understand that what appears to be is not true. It's just an illusion of existence. What we like, what we want, what we feel. The reality could change. Then we change. and to the utter sadness, we are even losing the instinct to notice change and to live life in a healthy and admirable fashion. We are just not real and true to ourselves.

There can be pages and pages of such instances which can be quoted which we agree or not are truth. Yet, we like to rest on the clouds of such dreams. One day, when the cloud rains, we are dumped to the reality. We don't know where we land.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Notice

Being expressive becomes addictive I guess. I am now a days very excited on expressing what I noticed and learnt that day. My hope that some one is following my blog hasn't faded away yet. I have been waiting for the entire day for this moment to write.



We like ourselves because we know ourselves but we don’t like the others because we don’t know them. 

If we carefully notice …a few things.we like to sit in the theatre watch the crap for 3 hours and be like the ones in the movie because we like the environment. We get the freedom of watching it the way we want. We can imagine the way we want . We give 100% attention, life , heart every thing possible into it. But if we had to learn some thing at work or at school we don’t because things don’t go the way we want them to be. We have no control or less control. But in reality it isn’t possible. If you are living a life where both of them fuse i.e  you watch a movie and then you like the characters in it and you want your life to be  that way as in the movie, live in that illusion for some time and then not able to balance the both of them, it means that there is some thing which eats your happiness in your life. 

So is it with any thing in life. We like to do a lot of things but the true happiness  is some thing we dot know yet. cause we live in a world of conditions where we live in a illusion. We just think we know every thing,but we don't know that we are ignorant

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Lessons

Lesson from IceAge 2
" So..ellie thinks that she is a possum not a mammoth until she meets Manny. It takes time for her to realise that she is mammoth until manny tells her that she is similar to him and she is not small"

How very well was it portrayed that we don't know the strength we have within ourselves due to the company we have been living in since the birth. Well, It is true that we tend to form a habit because of the way we were raised, the people we grew up with and the impressions we had. This doesn't make any one less than positive. These experiences come by default as a part of the package. If we want to enjoy more luxuries, we need to subscribe for them by making more efforts of learning and being and more self awareness.



A few conversations with one of my friends told me that I have been under estimating my own power for quite some time now. May be I am not really as powerful as I think I am now, but the thought of being weaker makes it all the more.. weaker. Whatever is is.it's a thought where did it originate!? Only I know the answer so would you..If there is anything which has made you feel the way you feel now..and what you feel now makes you suffocate then.you need to re look at it from the bird's view. It will help you notice and learn many things which you wouldn't have ever thought of. about yourself.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

The power of Perception


Did you notice this pic..It's so faint that we don't know what it is until we see carefully. Similar to our perceptions. One of my colleagues shared an incident with me which came to her from mouth to mouth.

A traveller was in the flight and waiting for the passenger in the next seat to occupy. The guy walks in and he appears sophisticated, well dressed and groomed and sits next to the window The traveler thought this guy seems to be good enough to strike a conversation. and tries to initiate the conversation. The guy doesnt respond. The traveler thought to himself " What an ill mannered person could he be?" After a short while, the airhostess, walks in and offers a drink to the guy and he just waves his hand to say no not even looking at the air hostess. The traveler is shocked and thinks to himself" How rude?"


After a few hours of journey, the flight lands and there is an announcement." All the passengers who are flying to XYZ place and have to fly through so and so airways please unboard the flight immediately as the time left is too less" The guy walks to the traveler and says" Could you please excuse me, I need to get out of the flight because I lost my wife and children in an accident in the XYZ place"


One unfortunate and unavoidable thing in life is that we are so bound to form perceptions about people that we cant live without them. If we have no perceptions we may end up feeling low about ourselves. Based on my observations and Incidents we form perceptions because of  :


  • Fears and Insecurities
  • Our expectations
  • What somebody told us
  • We dont know what it is like 
  • We dont want to think
  • We are happy this way because it doesnot add pressure
 It's been so easy to write but too hard to deal . A life without perceptions would make life so docile that its hard to live in the world of modern times.

Life makes becomes so pleasant without perception. Imagine a life where you don't have to worry about what your neighbours think about your friends, you don't have to worry about what your boss will think about your work but you give your 100%, you don't have to have sleepless nights, you can get healthier and peaceful.

But its not possible Is it? More to go...

Monday, October 11, 2010

The Awakening



This is quite strange that there is so much of energy we have in our life when we work, we struggle  to keep up to our work commitments, to make time for our the ones we love, to be ahead of the race in the society, to cover our own inner insecurities, to be able to project some thing which we always wanted to be, to be able to live smiling every day, to be able to enjoy the luxuries everyday so that we can forget the daily pressures from peers, parents, siblings, friends and so called making up for what we lost. We sleep with no smile on face, wake up with no peace of mind, we sleep with our legs in our stomach, hugging the pillows for the comfort, we keep searching for the special one who can understand before we hardly utter a word, we fake a smile with a perception of facing the world, we cry when we are alone and some times we cry within , and sometimes we don't even know that we are crying until we find a shoulder, we sleep scared that we cant ope our heart to any one, we eat food as if we gotto run and we wouldn't wake up . We wake up only to realize that all the pain and suffering we went through is only like a chase of mirage. Its not real. The reality is in the heart. The happiness is in the heart. The true reason which would make us happy was not what we were running behind, not to live upto someone else's expectation, not to pretend being what we wanted to be. Its in the hearty smile we gave when we learnt some thing about our self, when we shared our small mistakes with some one and yet slept in peace, when we ate food on time, when we played with our friends and when we smiled the whole day without any flickering of our thoughts.

The unfortunate reality of life is that we do not learn this until we live in a state of illusion for a period of time . The day we wake up, we see ourselves neck deep in the swamp . Only because we woke up we are safe, else you wouldn't have ever opened our eyes.

The question we need to ask ourselves is..

" In this world of unlimited dreams and innumerable options, do I still want to live in the illusions of - control, happiness, power or do I want to be wide awake so that I can live life fully and in reality.

Quote Repeated.  " Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a Mystery but today is a present"

Friday, October 8, 2010

Did You Notice!!???

 Did You ever notice ?
We are unhappy because we imagine what we want to happen over and over again, we hope the most positive results out of that, we live partially in the same world  but if it doesn't materialize, we remain unhappy and then the world seems upside down. We look at our own faults and the faults of the people around us. Some times, the most loved ones. The reality is nothing stops because of that. Life just goes on usually. We are just a speck of the world. Even if we were the most special ones in the world our charm would get withered away one day. So, the best way to live is not to expect anything from what you do. But the obstacle is..its not as easy to implement  as to say. That's the catch. If we don't expect we cant live life in this competitive world, if we live without expectations then we live like a cow.. Ummpph!!! To be able to be balanced is the trick . The world we can see is one hand..the world we imagine is on the other hand within ourselves. Its so tough to live with the world without one within.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Illusion



It is very hard to come to conclusion in life about anything... What you think exists, doesn't exist and some times what you can hardly even imagine appears in front of your eyes. Notice this: for anything which would happen in our life, we imagine or expect or hope or anticipate or wish that things would happen and we live in that illusion of happiness or sadness. If its happy news, we love ourselves, people around us, cherish the moments we spent and if we dont like the news we hate ourselves, we tend to make excuses for the loss, blame our parents or ourselves and every thing else under the sky. We get into a security blanket, shut our eyes ears and mind and live in the same world for years..some times until the end of life. What ever the news is, if you notice carefully, its only we who react cause we want some thing to happen in life and any difference from what we want we react . In both the cases, its an illusion not reality. To come out of the illusion is the challenge...whats the way out of it?? I don't know.. I guess that's the reason we have so many things happening in the world

Monday, September 27, 2010

Thoughts and Feelings


Its so strange that thoughts are just like cobwebs. We never know when they start but they just grow until you realise that they exist. They just pile up just like the piled up files in the P C and they occupy so much of space in your mind that when you actually start looking at it, you realize how much of time, effort and space you have wasted in your life for such minute semi existent virtual body. Though true that thoughts often turn into actions and actions turn into character, if you glance at the thoughts which just keep getting generated every day...all you can do is sigh!!The strangest thing about all these minute spark lets is they build or they ruin your life. What ever it is! Its very hard to decide if we run thoughts or thoughts run us cos if you decide to drive your life through a particular stream of thoughts..that itself  is a thought. As depicted in"Inception" every thought has an origin.  Some times, the origin lies in the root of our life and we run behind those thoughts for a life time. We also tend to have our children follow the same thoughts. No one challenges them. If challenged thats a thought , if not challenged thats a thought too. If you notice..these specks of time.. originate and build yet another life for FEELINGS. These play with us not just before we existed but also until the after life. Greed, lust, anger, joy and depression all of them are built based on the thoughts and feelings. Og gosh isnt it complex.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Why!!???

It is quite strange that all of us think so different about the same thing, we know that the same thing can be looked into in different views, yet we fight for the way we think. Is that the power of thought? Power of habit of thinking so? We are so comfortable with the way we think we know that its not true but we wouldn't want to come out of it. What would happen if we break the habit? We will be happy because we learn some thing new. What will happen to the practical situations and responsibilities we have shouldered? If we work our way over them, wouldn't we become selfish? If we become selfish..what would be the situation if everybody in the family.colony or society or world think so? How is this equilibrium of thoughts maintained across the world? Is there any one who can make time for these? Should we really make time? Are we all getting into the cobweb of life so much that we don't know ??We know that all what appears to be need not exist..all what exists need not appear.yet we are so much beyond happiness, shy, lust etc.. that we forget that there is a world within ourselves??

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

The tale of unexpressed love

My Heart Beat! You brought me back to life when I just saw you.
You made me feel my breath when I first met you..
Life turned beautiful in your company..
All the thorns turned into roses when you smiled at me
And you made my life a bed of roses
Wish I could hold the minutes we spent with each other looking into each other’s eyes When the air stood still and the earth knew no years
The life was colorful with our dreams
And we knew nothing but love and we shared our love every day and night
There came a day when the world brought hallucinations into our lives
 Darling I am not myself any more…
I can’t wait Life is moving so fast that I can’t control
All my past is pricking me in the heart
All our future is going dark
 Don’t know what I am doing and why
But every second is just pulling me in as swamp with all its murk
I have not expressed my love yet to you but
The life doesn’t just seem to listen to me any more
The princess of my dreams I brought you into a hut
The last thing I could do was lie in your lap and
feel my heart beat again With blood shed of my body
 and my heart crying in pain
 I couldn’t say much than one thing
And I knew I still love you and my breath diminished
But I know my dear that I still love you
From the bottom of my heart though I stopped breathing
Marriage was only how this world named my love
Children were only how they counted my happiness
But foolish world doesn’t know that my love grew  stronger
even after my body was burnt
 My heart beat, I love you from the soul of my soul
From the heart of my heart
As long as the sun shines And as long as the tides rise
Stupid world still thinks that what it sees is what all exists
 It still lives in an illusion of people, bonds and things
Pity them cos they don’t know That all the truth in the world
 is only love
 Its only love which ignites the sun and makes it shine
 Poor world  roams around it with different worlds with in

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Hatred



Human life is full of so many things...Nothing is real or nothing lasts for a long time like the picture you can see. We are full of so many thoughts..so much of happiness and so much of thoughts. But why do we hate people when we know that they are the same beings as we are. Because I guess, we like to be better than them? or because we feel in secured in their presence?May be we don't like them as much as we like themselves

We realise the most silly mistakes we made when we fail. That's why its important we fail. Tha challenge is to manage the turmoil in the thoughts. These thought cause so much of pain. There is already so much of pain and suffering in the world and in human beings, perhaps that's the reason the world is perishing. Only if the worls operates from love, we will be able to live happily for the time left. 

Truth is like traveling in a public shared vehicle. When you travel in an air conditioned personal  vehicle you hardly hear anything. When you travel through the a shared auto or a city bus, that tells you the reality that engine is an engine and it will burst your ear drums through the noise but there are various ways to avoid that and the best way to cover that up is  conditioning the vehicle

Friday, July 9, 2010

Happiness

This is so human. The picture was shot in Manila at the Landmark, shopping complex.

If you notice there is a orange ribbon which segregates the crowd into two.

On one side, there are people who are attending the evening mass. Church in a shopping Mall!! Its so good! We have not forgotten what brings peace to our mind

On the other, there are people betting on the play cards. There are people who are addicted, people who are trying hard to make luck..people who don't know why they are playing.

Though complicated, it is so interesting to see how people around us dwell, struggle and perish in the process of achieving happiness and peace and Joy!

We live in so much of denial all through the life.that's why we are never happy. We deny that we are happy. We keep complaining that we don't have what we want..rather than thinking on what we need. How strange..we think so much negative which can be turned positive..we think ten times to smile at some other human., we live in a complicated shell which we are scared .. We don't realize how much we have for this short life..but we open our mouth wide for some thing we cant digest..We move countries, we move jobs, companies, shares, partners every thing for our happiness yet..there is some thing we are looking for.

Whats that some thing?

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Foot prints


Things we didnot know,
Things we dont want to know..
All of them leave a print on our mind,
Which some times take away our happiness we find.
But my freind,
remember that in Life
Exeperience is experience
but noting is worth your smile

Monday, July 5, 2010

Change

Are you still thinking whats this painting. Don't think so much about it . Its just an experiment. But doesn't it represent the faint memories we have.. the small incidents which we enjoyed when we were children..when we were growing.

I just had a conversation with one of my freinds after a year I guess. We grew together. But now we are struggling i two different countries. How strange? We want change in our life. Yet when we think about the past we regret. Is it a natural tendency? Perhaps yes. 


We grow along with the world .Though we ourselves change, we don't accept change when it happens with some one else. We like to control others but not to be controlled.



Sunday, July 4, 2010

Reflection - not despair

The evening was good. When I went out to meet my friend..he shared with me a story which he read through a suicide note of a girl. There was no major sacrifice, no huge motivation from the story but.. it put my friend to a thought "What could have happened if there was one person who could have stopped the girl from suicide"

The truth about human beings is that we think a lot for those who are dead by body, for those who are not around us..for those who really have vanished into the spaces of time..but we fail to think 1/10th of that about the ones who are with us. We fail to realize that every one of the thousands of people around us have a unique story..be it a sweeper, a prostitute, a widow, an employee..Any one. Human life starts with a story ends with a story but the life is a cobweb of so many such stories which remain unspoken.

When Newton had a question "Why does the apple fall down?" people just said "How foolish is he!?", When Ambedkar fought against the ill treatment of people, the society said " He is a rebel", When Romeo and Juliet were in love, their families fought for reputation. Fiction or reality, humans have always unable to respect the lives in front of them its only after the demise of their physical body, they build memorials for them, they talk good about them..they name children after the ones who achieved the higher being. Is it all we can do?

One of my friends when heavily drunk asked me a question " Being a Human..why do we f**k a human's happiness?" He was a very different person after he had no spirit in his body that's a different question. Isn't that true ? Why do we humans turn stoned? We live running behind some thing or the other..for happiness..for money..for love what ever..end of the day.. we perish the way a tree does..the way a flower falls..we all know at the bottom of our heart that we are not happy...why? perhaps one of the following reasons:

We are scared to speak truth
We are scared to see truth
We are scared to admit truth

The truth can be in any form..a job..a relation a thought..or some times as shapeless as wind.That's perhaps the way of life..Struggle for existence and survival of the fittest rules still apply....

A careful observation tells us that human life oscillates between nine different emotions
Love
Anger
Greed
Lust
Loathe
Happiness
Mischief
Peace
and Devotion

I guess I quoted some wrong. The point is the value of life is beyond Tangibility.Its what you can sense..through your heart..but in this world we are so scared to speak our heart out?..We cant appreciate some one because we are scared we will be proven lesser than them..we cant tell some one that what they are doing is wrong.because..we are scared that they might rebel against us..We are scared to try new things..
looks like we are so concerned and worried about ourselves that

The truth is we are so scared of ourselves..some where in the heart..you are scared to admit the same

How long do we have to live the life in such closets...whats the way out?

Friday, July 2, 2010

How possible are you


He is forty, though unable to speak he is very skilled at healing punctures in two wheelers. He has been doing this work for 20 years now. We keep complaining so much about our life though we have so much to do and learn. I wonder how do heroes like this crib about their dissatisfacion

Hallucination

If you notice..every complication we have in our life is due to unnecessary thoughts. We get upset because we visualize things. We hallucinate so much that we forget the reality. We think about what happened , whats happening and visualize the future most often negatively because thats what we want and thats what we get. Sometimes, this is also because of the people you are with and may be because you are unhappy. My observations because we lack basics like timely sleep timely food so our inner conscious doesnt conjugate with our physical existence. This is too complicated than any one can imagine. All we need is a mind in peace. Perhaps loving some one unconditionally is one of the ways to get it. But we dont realise it until some one is lost.
Strange knowing this. I still think unnecessarily

Monday, June 28, 2010

Love

Nagpur: Locations change, climates change people never do. It is the same people mindset every one has. What I think is every one in this world suffers from some kind of loneliness..Some kind of insecurity..Some or the other kind of complex. Only if there was a world with so much of love that we can love people for what ever they are the earth would be a heaven of love. Is that possible and we would then never have problem talking simple things?

Sunday, June 27, 2010

What are people

If you notice carefully, there is a man in the picture. Behind the glass. The world is very big but it is people around the world. People are People. They struggle so much to make their lives to make their dreams come true. The picture was shot in Manila too and the glass you see is of a 5 star hotel named bellevue

Thoughts



Quite Surprising!! We struggle so much in our lives every day from the moment we get up until we rest. This picture was shot in Manila, These are the employees of some MNCs who slog themselves day in and day out in search oh Happiness! Where is this happiness?


Human mind is perhaps the most complex creation in the world.

Who created it? God, Perhaps. The existence of god itself is a question because the belief of the existence of god has come into rule because of the development of culture, rituals, religion. If so who has created this world?

We think so many things about life….where do these thoughts originate? Do they originate in mind? Where is mind? Is it in the heart with three valves? Is it in the brain which is three lobed? Why are we so tied up with thoughts?

If we carefully observe the thoughts, it is thoughts which bring life to human being. It is the thoughts which make some one famous for eternity. It is thoughts which kill some one before they have even lived life fully. It is the thoughts which make us feel good. There are so many of them which just get generated like nobody’s business. It is important that you control them to be able to control life. The day without thoughts you would feel lethargic like dead. But that’s what would bring peace to your life.

Let me analyze.

Centuries ago, when there was no so called civilization, what would have humans thought about? They would have thought about palaces, pearls gold ornaments properties and Change. Yes, that’s the one which has brought the world into the current form. Is this good!? What’s good in this? Yes we have various colored building with various technological awareness and advancement. But we still shit the same way we used to Stinky sticky thing. We still eat. The technology has brought luxury and laziness into life. That’s what makes us so in human. We seldom think about what the others feel and why they feel because I am so in secured with my thoughts and my existence. Including me.

That’s all we can do in life. We want to eat good food. We want to wake up in peace. We want to get dressed well. We want to get credits at work. We want every one to respect us. We want people to respect us even if we make mistake. We like the ones who talk nicely to us. We don’t care if we talk to other well or not. But if some one says anything against us, we start making a story against them and get defensive. We fight until we get what we want. Even without peace. We don’t like being talked about negatively but we talk negative about some one because it is a stress buster.

For every minute help we do to others we seek appreciation. For every minute trouble we face we seek smoothening. We become so dependant or too independent. To avoid any complication we have an inner society called “Family”. We live with our parent beings, our fellow beings and name the relations. We live so close to them that their absence makes us feel void.

If there is a thought which exists there is a reason for that too. Some times..there are experiences, psychological complexes, dreams, people behind the thoughts. It is strange that we often have thoughts about people around us. When we come back from holiday, we expect people to hug us an tell us how much they missed us, we expect that every thing goes the way we want to. The question is: Is every thing in life linked to an expectation? Perhaps yes.

Most of the times, we end up chasing dreams or running away from night mares. But is that the reality? Isn’t that an illusion at the end of the day? Is it that we just cannot accept the reality? Why? We end up spending years behind it! Or what would it be other wise..like me. Not running behind anything..No particular objective in life. Just living like a cow and a stone. One day I will die. But is that life? What’s life..just running behind some thing or not running behind anything.? Which on brings color to life. If every one was of the same kind..it would be so hard to live amongst the zebras. All of the same kind. To add to this we have a concept of reincarnations etc… god…there are so many things in life.

Am I complicating it!?